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Finally, i am here to write a new post in my blog after such a long break. I dun usually like to tell the world how i feel. But right now, i just feel terrible. I had 3 exams this week, all of which i’m NOT prepare for it. And now i’m here "blogging". Guess its just a way of life for a student nowadays.

Have u ever been betrayed by anyone? Especially by the people u love and trust most? Ever wondered how it feels like? No…u dun feel like killing them. They are still the one that u love, the person that u care about. Because, if u dun love them, then u wouldn’t care much if they betray u. U just keep your distance away fr them in the future and forget about it (at least that is what i will do).

But when that person happens to be your love one, then its a completely different story. Your heart ache (u feel like someone just punctured  your heart), your mind is filled with hundreds or even thousands of questions…it can affects u in so many ways. How could a person u cared so much about do this to u? You just would not understand why.

And from the stories that i had heard fr my frens (or from their blogs), i realise that there are so many people out there that are just so selfish, cruel, heartless and without any sense of humanity that they will do so many unthinkable things that will cause some much heartbreak to people around them.

Of course there are also many good people out there, but i think that it is getting lesser and lesser nowadays. Thats the world it is today i suppose.

This is just how i feel now. It may not be true…but can anyone please prove me wrong?

Life…can anyone tell me what is life?? well…u must be god is u know the answer…

There are so many ups n downs in life….one moment u feel as though u are flying high in the sky, and then.. the next thing u know, u were knocked down HARD to the ground. It hurts…not just physically,.. most of the time emotionally as well….

So what should u do at times like this? Many questions will pop up…"why must this happen to me?" "why is this world so unfair?", "what wrong have i done to deserve this?"

U try to look for an answer, for things that will motivate u to move on in life…sometimes u get over it fast, sometimes it takes a really long time…in the end, u still get on with life…either u become a better or a worst person….

After reading the blogs and looking at the picture of some old friends, i realised that time has flew past me without me realising….how things has changed so so much…not just to me, but to many of my friends as well….i really wish i can reverse the time, wish i will wake up in the morning, changed into my school uniforms to get to school…school life is so stress-free, all u think about is to play with your frens…when exam is a piece of cake..

but then….no matter how hard u pray…..it will never happen…things that has changed will remain changed…it will never be the same anymore…never ever…

that is not the only thing i’d realised. the other thing is that the world is becoming so materialised. money has played such an important role in the society…people judge u by how much money u have, what house u stay in, the car u drive, how many platinum cards u have..bla, bla,bla….it has created so many devils…people cheat, steal, kidnap and even kill to get the money the easy way…

for those who try to get it in the decent way has to work up their ass to earn enough to pay their car loan, saving to buy a house, pay credit card bills..etc…working up to 2-3am n get up by 7, work during the holidays…leaving almost no time for themselves, to do the things they love, to spend time with their love ones…what a life…

so some smart ass same up some smart ideas so people can earn more money without having to work so hard…it works…but then…what do u get in the end? will it creat more people that is more materialised? i think it will…it may be worst coz some of these people will not appreciate how hard the others have to work to earn the money…they may never appreciate the value of the money…

but then…we can’t blame them…no one can…it is the society, the way they think that created the need for this. so, should we blame the society? or the politician? or the advertisement for this? sometimes…we tend to blame everyone but ourselves…